I’ve had many moments lately where the realization of the fact that I am getting older has slapped me around and left me dazed! I find myself driving to work in the mornings thinking about my life and wondering what extraordinary thing I can do to make a difference in this world before I leave it. I wonder what it is I am here for…….that’s not a complete sentence, but I don’t know any other way to say it! I went to camp a week ago with over 100 students ages 13-18. It was all good till about Thursday! I woke up feeling every bit of 55! When we returned it took a couple days to recover. I wouldn’t trade it for anything, but I hate being hindered by achy muscles and joints. I am watching my youngest become a young woman and flex her independence a bit and I feel the ache in my heart as I realize the time is near for her to pull away and step out into the world. I look into the faces of the precious girls in my Sunday School class and wonder if the time is drawing near that they would enjoy and benefit more from someone younger and cooler. I wonder about where I am in life and if God wants me to go in a different direction or if He still has a plan for my life. Fifty-five is a weird place to be, heck so far all of the 50’s have been weird. Filled with contemplation and realization. I feel out of place. I feel like I’m not sure where I go from here! I wonder if anyone out there ever feels this same way!
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"About you"? It is hard to declare any one thing or even a few things that would be of any interest to anyone! I love God. I know that I am His child, and I waver between being totally overwhelmed with His love, grace and mercy in my life, to being overwhelmed with how fast life is passing and how bad a job I have done at living this life He has given me. I often wonder if anyone else is out there walking around trying to act normal (which, if I may insert here, is really a relative term to everyone...what is normal?). About me? I am complicated! I love God with all my heart and want to serve Him with all my heart and want to do something important with all my heart and yet, this life I live everyday, doesn't seem to line up with that. More than anything - I want to be a published writer. I want to have the time to go to places that are surrounded by the sound of crashing waves and breezes and just listen. Or, to sit on a deck of some remote cabin and listen to the whisper of God's voice in the trees. I wonder.....I wonder if those moments will ever come? View all posts by dana2day