Since my rant on “I’m in a weird place” and my 2:48am episode with caffeine induced sleeplessness, things have calmed down. This is the first week I have started to get a picture of the next season of life. I mean, not fully, but a glimpse maybe. Monday was Labor Day and my big guy and I just hung out around the house, then spontaneously went out to dinner. Yesterday I cleaned our bathroom from top to bottom, pretty much. I cleaned our bedroom. I cleaned the kitchen. Then I chatted with our 20 year old when she came home from her grown-up job. Today a friend rode with me to the wedding venue where my baby girl is going to get married to measure a few things. We had lunch. Then back home. Chill. That is a good word for the last few days. I’m trying to figure out a schedule, or plan or something for this season of life. It feels strange to not be working, not be running children somewhere, to not be planning dinner, washing mountains of clothes. But I am trying to gather my thoughts. MY thoughts. MY plans. Trying to find who I am now that I won’t be helping, nurturing, feeding, chauffeuring, disciplining, clothing, and parenting busy, loud, beautiful daughters anymore. I’ve spent the last 28 years happily being a Mom to 3 amazing young women. But now, it’s time for me and this big guy I’ve been married to for the last 30 years (this month) to figure out what it is we want to do. It’s time for me to figure out what I want to do. It is time for me to sit down and be still and hear what God wants me to do in this next season. I have to admit, I have a feeling of anticipation. Not dread, not sadness, not lost or useless. I feel like God has something cool in store, that this new season will be just as interesting and exciting as the last. So. Here we go!!!!
What’s the next step?
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"About you"? It is hard to declare any one thing or even a few things that would be of any interest to anyone! I love God. I know that I am His child, and I waver between being totally overwhelmed with His love, grace and mercy in my life, to being overwhelmed with how fast life is passing and how bad a job I have done at living this life He has given me. I often wonder if anyone else is out there walking around trying to act normal (which, if I may insert here, is really a relative term to everyone...what is normal?). About me? I am complicated! I love God with all my heart and want to serve Him with all my heart and want to do something important with all my heart and yet, this life I live everyday, doesn't seem to line up with that. More than anything - I want to be a published writer. I want to have the time to go to places that are surrounded by the sound of crashing waves and breezes and just listen. Or, to sit on a deck of some remote cabin and listen to the whisper of God's voice in the trees. I wonder.....I wonder if those moments will ever come? View all posts by dana2day