Peeps….it has happened….I finally got a response from a literary agent that wasn’t a reject letter! It’s true! I mean, at least I don’t think this is a dream…..I keep checking to see if the email is still in my box…it is….it’s right there in black and white. So it must be real…right? She asked for the first 10 pages. Heart drops. Are my first 10 pages good enough to make her want the rest? It’s almost worse than getting a reject letter! Now I must wait to see if I’m good enough in 10 pages to be asked for the remaining 70 pages! This is going to kill me! I almost fell out of bed yesterday morning when I casually scanned through my email snuggled under my covers in the early morning hours. My husband ran to my rescue when he heard me gasp loudly. I scrambled for my glasses so that I could make sure I had read it correctly! I did. It was right there in black and white! One small drop of validation. Let’s pray that drop doesn’t dry up in a matter of minutes!!!
Today, after weeks of melancholy….(Don’t you love that word? It so adequately fits the definition of, well, melancholy. To be “soberly thoughtful, pensive”) or as my dear friend of 34 years says a bad case of the “can’t help-it’s and the mully-grubs” I took a big step forward and registered my blog domain. Stop rolling your eyes, it’s a big deal in my world. It means I’m serious about this blog. It means I need to get off my fanny and pursue this writing thing. It means I need to quit wallowing (look it up, it’s a real word) around in my mud puddle of melancholy, get up, rinse the mud off and face forward. The sad thing about people who have a writer’s heart….they tend to wallow….they tend to allow the mully-grubs to just take over completely, and pretty soon they are wallowing all up in that melancholy mud puddle and they are enjoying it! Pretty much a “woe is me” attitude prevails. I’m pretty sure God isn’t pleased with me right now, because I’ve pretty much been up to my chin in melancholy for weeks. I just imagine Him shaking His head and sighing “Will she ever learn to trust me….”
So…anyway, enough of chasing that squirrel! This registering my blog domain thing has now made me accountable. It is going to require me to actually, well, you know, write! No more whining, no more excuses, no more procrastinating. So, to quote a t-shirt that my cousin gave me a few years ago, “Put on your big girl panties and deal” …I’m taking a big step forward, putting on my big girl panties and dealing.