escape, Life, promises, Writing

From baby steps to big girl panties…..

Today, after weeks of melancholy….(Don’t  you love that word?  It so adequately fits the definition of, well, melancholy.  To be “soberly thoughtful, pensive”) or as my dear friend of 34 years says a bad case of the “can’t help-it’s and the mully-grubs” I took a big step forward and registered my blog domain.  Stop rolling your eyes, it’s a big deal in my world.   It means I’m serious about this blog.  It means I need to get off my fanny and pursue this writing thing.  It means I need to quit wallowing (look it up, it’s a real word) around in my mud puddle of melancholy, get up, rinse the mud off and face forward.  The sad thing about people who have a writer’s heart….they tend to wallow….they tend to allow the mully-grubs to just take over completely, and pretty soon they are wallowing all up in that melancholy mud puddle and they are enjoying it! Pretty much a “woe is me” attitude prevails.   I’m pretty sure God isn’t pleased with me right now, because I’ve pretty much been up to my chin in melancholy for weeks.  I just imagine Him shaking His head and sighing “Will she ever learn to trust me….”
So…anyway, enough of chasing that squirrel!  This registering my blog domain thing has now made me accountable.   It is going to require me to actually, well, you know, write!  No more whining, no more excuses, no more procrastinating.    So, to quote a t-shirt that my cousin gave me a few years ago, “Put on your big girl panties and deal” …I’m taking a big step forward, putting on my big girl panties and dealing.